tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89424576871699713032024-02-19T03:54:12.280-06:00Joyful Journey NewsletterAngie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.comBlogger41125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-66089295334583488322012-06-11T18:47:00.001-05:002012-06-11T18:47:54.594-05:00New WebsiteAs of today I have a new website so please check there from now on. I appreciate your support.
www.joyfuljourneynewsletter.comAngie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-56307478066230434492012-06-05T21:18:00.000-05:002012-06-05T21:18:49.814-05:00God is in chargeDoubt is just a fact of life whether we are a christian or not. Sometimes I think it is easier for those without a relationship with the Lord to deal with doubt and uncertainty because really, they know nothing else. These people have nobody but themselves to count on and if things don't work out, they can't blame anyone else, especially God. Yet, sometimes that is exactly what happens. Those people that claim to not believe in God or want a relationship with Him, are often the same ones that then turn around and bash God when "their" plans don't work out.
Of course God is in charge. How can we look around and see the wonderful sky, the sunsets, our children, grandchildren, have someone give us a hug or hold us when we cry, and not believe that there is a God? I look at my world and I defintely know that there is a God.
About 3 or 4 months ago, I began participating in an online bible study with a speaker/writer from Proverbs 31 ministries. www.proverbs31.org. This is a great bunch of ladies that minster to the hearts of women and I was so thankful to have the opportunity to participate in the study. I learned so much from the book study but as well, I have met some great friends.
A few weeks ago, I was given the awesome gift of being asked to be a leader for the online bible studies through this ministry. Wow. I am so blessed and thankful for God allowing me this privilige and the minstry team feeling that I am worthy of this opportunity. God is certainly been surprising me lately. Why do I ever doubt that He has the best plans for me if I will just be patient and watch how he works it all out for his glory?
I am praying for you my friend, that you will know God and His power through all He has in store for you today and the coming weeks, months and years. Don't ever doubt that He wants the best for you. Stay strong. Be courageous and step out even when you are fearful. He just wants our love and to be available.
Lord, I thank you for all you have done and are doing in my life. I love you LordAngie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-17704754388893854962012-05-20T21:32:00.001-05:002012-05-20T21:32:05.703-05:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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This is a picture of our youngest son, Chance Webb.. I am so thankful that God has given me the opportunity to raise this child. He just graduated from college last week, which floors me. How can this baby of mine be almost 22 years old? Lord, thank You for the privilige of being Chance's mother.Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-61821844623307343452012-05-20T21:24:00.002-05:002012-05-20T21:25:17.093-05:00TrustI feel like the word trust often conjours up different things to different people, but for me, it is a word that often brings up bad memories or feelings of hurt. Trust isn't easy for someone that has often been the one that has been left by family, friends or other that have been in my life because they felt the reality of being part of my life was too difficult.
When I met my boyfriend Mike, who is now my husband, trust wasn't something I handed over very easily but for some reason I felt I could lay my heart on the line and allow him into my life.. Of course, trust being that we live in a fallen world, he also hurt me as well. Life isn't perfect, even though we want it to be perfect.. Life hurts and we happen to hurt others. Sadly, for me this life has hurt me deeply through many struggles that weren't my doing but through the sinful natures of others..
I believe that the word TRUST sometimes means that we must put ourselves out there to be hurt again because it is inevitable. Pain and suffering are just part of this life but so are love, joy, peace, happiness, memories that make us be glad we are part of this life with someone else.
Today, let us reach out to those in our lives and take the time to remember why we love them and want them to be part of our lives. Often times, I seem to remember only the bad that has happened in my relationships but I need to take the time to remember the good as well.
I pray for you my friend, that you will take the time to look at the big picture. Does the good outweigh the bad? I hope so and I pray that you will find the peace that God so desperately wants for you to have. Your life is meaningful and is so much more than just one experience. I understand sometimes that one experience seems like the end of us but in reality, it may be the beginning to find yourself. Sometimes we have to reach the end of our rope before we can finally reach out to the rope of God..
I pray for you friend. Find yourself through the love God has for you. Don't find your acceptance in society, but through God... God is the only way to find true happiness.Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-71280368546320694732012-05-17T16:20:00.002-05:002012-05-17T16:20:35.417-05:00SuccessSuccess is a word that is often is discussed when we are talking about our jobs, our income or the way our house looks. Yet, success according to the bible is totally different from what is described by society. Success according to Psalm 1:1-4 is based on:
1st: Be cautious about your relationships. Don't walk in the counsel of the wicked or in the path of sinners. This verse discusses that we need to have good relationships.
Don't walk in the counsel of the wicked should be applied to every area of our life whether it is family relationships, business and money. I believe sometimes the one that we think has the most knowledge due to a degree or money, really may be the one that gives us the worst advice. Don't stand in the path of sinners means even though we will encounter those that sin whether in our work experiences or other areas of our lives, that does not mean we have to be a part of their sinful practices or condone what is going on.
Do not sit in the seat of scoffers. Scoffers are basically those that ridicule God, His people and His word, which in today's world isn't hard to find. You can watch TV on any day and practically find this on one or more programs. You can retn a movie, even a movie that is suppose to be clean, and you will find some reference to putting down the name of God or the people of God. Often times, the hardest part of being a Christian is having to take a stand for something that you know "everyone else" finds nothing wrong with, but that is exactly what God calls us to do. Psalm 1:1-4 is a guide to success according to God and His Word. Success doesn't always mean money, power or fame. Success is bringing honor to the name of the Lord by being a person of values, morals and standing up for the name of God.
Let us remember that success is about honoring God.Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-62321691468220757802012-05-14T19:22:00.001-05:002012-05-14T19:22:29.029-05:00Great WeekendWe had a great weekend at our house.Our youngest son, Chance graduated from college on Friday. It was such an awesome day and I am so proud of him. He has worked hard at his job while attending college and he also lives on his own. He has worked hard to succeed and has done an awesome job. He was on the deans list 4 semesters and was also a member of the Phi Theta Kappa Club based on his grades while in high school and college. After graduation ceremony, we went out to eat at Ohanas, a japenese resturant. It was a fun time with Chance and his dad.
Saturday, we had a cookout for Chance, friends and family to celebrate his graduation. We had a good time.
Then Sunday, Mike took me out to eat for lunch and then we did a little shopping. After that we just went home and rested.
The week was crazy trying to get ready for graduation and the cookout, but in the end it was a fun time. This week I hope to have some down time to rest and recoup.
I am thankful to my wonderful husband and son Chance. I enjoyed the time making memories. Chance has discussed with us that he wants to move to Florida.. Florida is a long way from Texas, especially when you have never lived anywhere but where he lives now. I will support Chance and the decisions he makes, but that doesn't mean that it will be easy. I am afraid that I won't see my child again... Yet, I know that I have to let him grow up and make his own decisions.
Today Lord, I know that the plans you have for Chance as well as for my family, is good.. Your plan is the best. Just help me to remember that you hold Chance in the palm of Your hand and nothing can seperate him from Your love.
Guide and protect him in whatever decision he makes.Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-68586732451648969652012-05-05T18:04:00.000-05:002012-05-05T18:04:34.536-05:00FamilyFamily:
When you hear that word, what do you have come to mind? For me, family doesn't only mean the ones that are related by blood, but those that have come along side me in times of need, struggles, traumas and have stood beside me. This is the family that I think of when I hear that word. I know that I have family that are related by blood, but sometimes blood family just doesn't feel the holes in our hearts and then God provides those other "family" members that we need.
I know in my own life, sometimes the hardest places in my life, are the times that I have felt alone because my "family" has shunned me for one reason or another, or there are issues that just cannot be resolved. The loneliness sets deep into my soul at those times because I desperately have needed my blood family and often they just really haven't worried about me as their daughter, sister or mother.. I know that sometimes I have been the one that has held the family together during the deaths of loved ones but often times, that is when I really need a hug or someone to step into my life and say that they cared about me... Not because of anything I have or haven't done, but just because I am ANGIE... Isn't that enough?
Many times through my life, I haven't felt like just being ANGIE is enough and that I must meet some standard and some "expectation" to get the love and support that I have so desperately needed. When you grow up in a home that often times doesn't accept you for the way God made you, then when you add on top of that the way society judges women and especially women with panic attacks, fear and other struggles, then I can understand why there are so many other Christians struggling with accepting themselves, problems and all.
No person is free from struggles or pain, yet it is how we use those experiences. Do we use them as a way to have a pity party? To hurt others? Or do we tell how God has helped us through all of the pain, tragedies, fear and hurts??
That is my goal in this newsletter. I would never want to bring glory to the enemy through the telling of my story or my struggles. My glory will only be to the ONE TRUE GOD... Who has saved me more than once from myself and from the enemy.. I have so many instances where I can clearly tell you that God had HIS hand on me and was making sure I was being held under HIS WING... No,,, Pain doesn't end because we are christians but I am so thankful that I can say that I live for the ONE TRUE SAVIOR and GOD.... Nothing can seperate us from the love of God..
Today, I am praying for you in whatever area you are struggling.. I pray that God will send a friend or a loved one in your direction to help you face whatever needs to be dealt with.. Maybe it is something from your past. Maybe it something in your life now that continues to be a hinderance to your walk with the Lord.. Friend, continue to pray and ask God to minister to you in the areas you are facing. He will meet you exactly where you are.Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-86411013561673362382012-05-05T17:48:00.001-05:002012-05-05T17:48:59.063-05:00Jesus Calling By Sarah YoungCome to Me for all that you need. Come into My Presence with thanksgiving, for thankfulness opens the door to My treasures. When you are thankful, you affirm the central truth that I am God. I am Light, in whom there is no darkness at all. The assurance that I am entirely Good meets your basic need for security. Your life is not subject to the whims of a sin-stained deity.
Relax in the knowledge that the One who controls your life is totally trustworthy. Come to Me with confident expectation. There is nothing you need that I cannot provide.
Psalm 95:2, 1 Joh 1:5Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-91791581606566935182012-04-25T16:39:00.000-05:002012-04-25T16:39:20.119-05:00Being Strong;This week has not been an easy one for me. I have always struggled with anxiety and fear, yet this week has been very hard for me. I really think that I haven't dealt with some really tough issues from my past and the enemy keeps bringing those up for me to struggle with again. I know God wants me to face these struggles head on and move forward once and for all. A few weeks ago, on the anniversary of my grandmother's murder, I cried most of that week on and off. The anniversary of her death doesn't normally really affect me in a huge way, but for some reason this anniversary was extremely difficult. I think this week has just been a continuation of that struggle and I don't think I have ever really grieved my grandmother's death.
God allowed me to have this wonderful woman in my life for 30 years and for that I am thankful. I will never truly understand why God chose to take her to his home in the heavens, but I know God said to her when she arrived, " Well done, good and faithful servant." My grandmother lived her life for the Lord and she was the ultimate example of excellence in human form to me, yet I know God has a plan for all the pain as well as the joy we face while in our earthly home.
Grief is a powerful emotion and I think I had to be strong for everyone else during that time, and I never grieved. I have always had to be the strong one and keep everything bottled up inside and not need anyone to worry about me. Yet, through this past few weeks, I have realized that I am falling apart inside because I keep everything inside and act like I have it all together. Usually, I do have a pretty good grasp on whatever is going on in my life, but lately I really just need someone to stand beside me and say..." I am here" and to give me a hug. I need a friend with skin on as my mom says..
I have just recently been out of the workforce for the first time in my adult life. I am really struggling with finding my purpose in being home. I miss being out in the public and seeing people as well as having a purpose. I really don't know what I am to do while I am at home. I help my husband some with our business but I feel like I am not contributing enough... I want more yet I don't know what that " more " is.. I am not saying material things. I am saying more than just cleaning, cooking and helping with the runnings of the business.
Please pray for me and what I am suppose to be doing during this time of transition. I would also appreciate you praying for me to find a good friend that will be a part of my life...
I pray for you as well. Please leave me a comment..Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-7267682440350102212012-04-23T14:55:00.001-05:002012-04-23T14:55:40.258-05:00Online Bible StudyChapter 1: Everyone Worries, Don’t They?
Hey fellow Bible Study friends,
I am so thrilled that you have decided to join this awesome bible study. Dr. Linda Mintle is a fabulous author and has been featured on The 700 Club as well as other prime time shows such as The Doctors. She is the author of over 15 books, including Breaking Free from Anger and Unforgiveness. Linda is a faithful follower of Jesus Christ and believes that all women should live a life free from worry, anxiety and fear.
You can purchase this from either Amazon.com or Christianbook.com
Sample of Chapter Titles:
1. Everyone Worries, Don’t They?
2. Life, Difficult Times, and the Nightly News
3. Confessions of Worriers: Why We Do It
4. Worried Sick: The Physical Toll of Worry
I am just finishing up another bible study on fear and living a fearless life, so I know that this study will go along with Letting Go of Worry. Let us find the best for our lives. Jeremiah 29:11.
God Bless. I hope you will sign up through the email to join this study.
Email me at: joyfuljourneynewsletter@gmail.com or mikesgal65@yahoo.comAngie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-61809820614233170912012-04-19T16:24:00.000-05:002012-04-19T16:24:36.979-05:00PainLast week was really a tough week for me due to the memories I faced of my grandmother and her murder. It was also a rough week because in the same week many years ago, my husbands brother took his own life, so the week of April 10-17th is a rough one for my whole family.
Yet, this is another week and I am trying to move forward. I have been struggling with some issues from my past and I know that God wants me to be free from the past but for some reason I keep beating myself up over the same things.
But I am done with that... Do you hear me enemy? You cannot beat me up anymore. You know exactly where I struggle but I am not going to let you make me jump off into that pit any longer. I previously, willingly, jumped off into that pit because I didn't feel like I was worth anymore than the pain and hurt and fear I struggled with, yet through the last few years, I am learning that I am worth so much to God and that is enough.
Maybe I will never be a awesome writer, blogger etc, but I know regardless of what I accomplish in this life, none of that matters to God. He loves me, accepts me, is enthralled with my beauty, chose me and wants the best for me, no matter what others think or say about me.
I cannot live in the past or in the pain from the past. Sometimes it might be easier to keep living that "story" but is that "story" glorifying God or glorifying the enemy? I know my story has awesome miracles and powerful experiences that I know are valuable teaching and ministry tools, but I do not want to use my past pain to give the enemy more credit than God.
God is the ultimate healer of my soul as well as the lover of my soul. He will never leave me, nor forsake me. He will always accept me no matter how much I fail or how often I keep making the same mistakes.
Today, I pray for you that you will also remember that God loves you and wants you to be released from your pain. Use your past to minister to others and help others find freedom, but don't allow the enemy to use your "story" against you. You are free today, my friend.
Hugs and Blessings to You...
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16 years ago on this date, my grandmother, Neenie, was murdered by my grandfather, who then took his own life. My grandmother, Neenie, was more like a mother to me at times than my own mom. I knew with my grandmother, her love was unconditional where often times at home, love felt conditonal. Neenie loved me as I was.. No question and no doubt. I knew she wanted the best for me and was always cheering me on in whatever aspect of my life I was facing. Whether that was school, friends, choir, dreams, goals or marriage and family. I knew that some of my decisions she might have been unhappy with or disappointed in, but I never once heard a negative word come out of her mouth about me or my decisions. She LOVED ME and I am forever grateful for that. She changed me in so many ways. I had the grandmother that most kids dreamed of having, yet very few had the privilige of having. She was the grandmother who took the time to have slumber parties with me and my friends, took the time to show me how to cook, sew and even had the patience to help me learn to drive. She was the fun grandmother who always included everyone at her house, even my friends and cousins from the other side of the family. We had homemade taffy pulls with lots of dripping butter so the taffy wouldn't burn our hands. We had tea parties and made mud pies and mud towns under the big tree in her backyard. We took trips to Sonic for a coke. She would invite me to her house for the weekend and we would go to church or I would spend the summers with her, which then allowed me to go with her to work. I loved going to her office and pretending to work as a secretary.
But my best memory of all is her taking the time to make sure I was in church as often as my parents would allow because we didn't live in the same town. Sometimes it was every weekend or every other weekend, or even at times longer than that before we saw each other again, but I always knew that when I went to Neenie's, we were going to church. Through her example and her love, I was saved and baptized in 1979 at Fairview Baptist Church in Levelland Texas, which is the home church of all of my grandmothers family. They all still attend there.
This blog today is to remember my wonderful grandmother, Neenie, who God somehow knew I would need in my life to give me the godly example of a good, christian woman, wife, and mother. I loved her and will always miss her. But one day we will meet again.
Today has been a sad time for me. I usually don't go to the cemetary during the year to see any of my family there, but today I really felt like I needed to make that trip. I believe God did something in my heart today when I went there. Something finally broke free in all of the anger I have had in losing her to murder and my grandfather to suicide. The weight is lifting some. More and more each day. I know I will never forget her and I will never stop missing her, but God has a plan even in the pain and suffering.
Neenie, I hope you are proud of me and the life I am living. I want you to be proud of me.. I miss you.
For: Inetha Henderson Cooke Sones
April 11th 1996
Even when I doubt, I know Jesus never fails..
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This is a question I heard someone ask on television and it has really made me think... I know that we have a body, soul and spirit. The body will decay after we die and the spirit will go to be with the Lord but our soul is where our feelings, emotions, hurts, pains, struggles reside. We know that we are seen day in and day out by the Lord and nothing is hidden from his view, so this makes me wonder if my soul is pleasing to the Lord?
I just am thinking.... What about you? What do you think about this question?
Another question I want you to think about is:
What gives you the greatest joy? And Why?
Have a blessed day.
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My post is called "Don't put an old fear on a new day"Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-64806133903413616522012-04-06T18:14:00.002-05:002012-04-06T18:16:06.782-05:00FearI have been joining about 2600 other men and women on an online bible study about fear. Before I always thought that fear meant you were weak, lacking or not worthy of God's faithfulness in your life because if I had fear that must mean somehow along the line of handing out character traits, I wasn't given the trait of courage or self esteem.. Otherwise, I wouldn't be fearful. But over time I have realized, the opposite is really true because everyday that I wake up to face my fears and walk through the fire to make my life continue to move forward, that must mean I am being courageous and not fearful. I may be feeling anxious and fearful inside, but I still put one foot in front of the other because I don't want my life to pass me by and one day have regrets that I missed out on a huge plan that God had for me and my life.
About 4 years ago, I was totally homebound due to my agoraphobia. One day after many struggles after talking myself into making the necessary steps to overcome this, my husband came home from his job and said that his boss wanted him to go to a class for his job in another town. The town is about 2 1/2 hours from us. Mike wanted me to go with him on the trip and we could spend the weekend out of town. We had not been anywhere in years... Literally years due to my fear of travel. I knew that Mike really wanted me to go with him on this trip but I was so afraid to commit because what if I couldn't do it.. What if something happened and I had a panic attack? What if.. What if... I told Mike that if I could find someone to work for me the 3 days we would be gone, then I would go.. I told God that if He wanted me to go with Mike then he would have to work it all out.. Surprise, Surprise. The next day at my job I found another employee that said they would work all 3 days for me.. Well, now I am in a mess because now I have to go..
We left town on a Thursday and I took my laptop, tons of books, my Bible and my music on my IPOD. I planned on trying to stay so busy that I didn't have time to get nervous or fearful. We had planned to stop about half way in a pretty good size town and do some shopping, then head out again. Needless to say, once we got to Amarillo, I was okay until it got time to go to bed. I just have never enjoyed being in a new town, new place, or around an unfamilar area.. I don't know where that fear comes from but I am really making strides to figure it out in counseling. I know there is a reason.
We had a good time out of town and Mike was so proud of me for stepping out and doing something that I was so afraid of doing. I knew it was important to him and he wanted me to go, so I did it.
I have realized that I have always believed that I was lacking in courage or self esteem or some other character trait that all of these other people had that did all of these awesome things in their lives, but now I realize that I have that inside of me too. I just need to decide that I have the POWER, LOVE, and SELF CONTROL that the Bible talks about in 2 Timothy 1:7.. I know that God's power lies inside of me, so with HIM, I am powerful.. WIth HIM, I have love. With HIM, I have self control.
Basically I am talking to myself trying to convince myself that I can do this.. I can make this trip I so desperately want to make. I haven't seen my grandmother in about 6 years and I haven't seen my cousins or Uncle in that long either. I want so desperately to make this 6 1/2 hour trip..
LOrd, Please guide me on the road to continued healing, power and freedom from this stronghold of fear in my life. I know that you want everyone free from fear and I ask you to do this miraclious work in my life and any other person reading this today. Fear is such a powerful emotion but I know POWER comes from you Lord to overcome anything we face. You know my hearts desire.. I ask that you TOTALLY, TOTALLY eradicate this from my life and for me to never feel its presence again. I know you want the best for me and every other person reading this. Your plans are always the best.. I thank you for the wonderful family I have who are so understanding and so encouraging.. Without my husband and other family that loves me, I would be lost.
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Friendship means that we accept that person for who they are; without any preconcieved notions or plans to change them into who we want them to be. Sometimes through social media, we only know the person that we see on the screen and maybe that is just a persona that is being displayed for everyone to see, and not really the "true" person.
I have been studying the word "true" for awhile because I am writing a bible study on the True Vine written in John 15. I know that we think we have "true" friendships based on a relationship online, but without a connectedness through a one on one basis other than through the internet, I believe it is hard to have a relationship that is "true". We need to take the time to step out of our social media outlets and make the effort to connect through real conversations on the phone, writting emails or handwritten letters (Love to do this) or having a lunch date with this friend. I know that having a one on one lunch date isn't always possible if we live in different areas of the country, but lets take the time to really think of ways to connect other than through social media.
The definition of True: sincere, real or our real nature. Our "True" self is what God has called us to be. Let's not be fake or false in who we come across as being. God wants the "true" US as do our other relationships. Be true to yourself and to others by offering the real YOU.. You are worth it. You are loved by God for just being YOU..
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Have a blessed weekend.Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-75417069597550612352012-03-29T17:44:00.000-05:002012-03-31T17:01:57.918-05:00An Untroubled HeartI am currently a member of an online bible study with Melissa Taylor at her website, <a href="http://www.melissataylor.og">www.melissataylor.org</a>. The study is by a book called " An Untrouble Heart" <a href="http://www.miccacampbell.com">by Micca Campbell</a>.The first chapter has been really hard to read due to the story of Micca's husband dying tragically in a fire.
From the moment my brother in law took his own life and then when my grandmother was murdered by my grandfather 6 years later, I really have only exsisted and not really lived due to fear in my life.
Fear is such an overwhelming emotion to me that I don't really even know if I have ever had a day in my life that fear wasn't rearing its ugly head in some form or fashion. But that is why I am doing this study with 2600 other men and women from all over the world. I am praying that what Micca writes in her book will help me break this stronghold in my life.
For me, losing a loved one is hard enough without having a huge trauma connected to that death. I have lost so many loved ones through tragic deaths such as suicide and murder, that I often wonder if I really know what a normal grief would feel like. I don't really understand grief as a normal emotion because to me, I have always had to be the "strong one" and the one that didn't need anything thing from anyone, yet I desperately wanted someone to look me in the eyes and say " Angie, you will survive and there is a good plan for your life." But I never heard those words or felt the security in believing that all things would return to normal. Here it is 20 years later, and they are "normal" as best as I know them to be but I know that there is "more" out there than just my small exsistence on this little blog, in my little town and with my little life of insignificance. I am sure I mean something of importance to someone in my small world, but I want to do great things with my writing, my story and my healing from the Lord. I don't know what God has for me, but I pray it will be big enough for me to know it is totally HIM and not any doing of my own. I have seen it so many times in my life, yet here I am again asking for another miracle Lord.
In 2008, I wasn't able to leave my home due to agoraphobia and here it is 4 years later, and I can leave my home, drive, shop, go to resturants and try to live as normal as a life as I can. I still have a huge fear of traveling away from my town but that is a fear I am going to also conquer with God's help.
Miracles are possible and healing is possible. I know. I have had it in my life more than once and you probably have to. Don't give up. Fight the good fight of faith and come out on the other side better than when you started.
Lord, Today I ask you to bless any person reading this post. Maybe they are also facing fears in their lives; whether small or large, they are still creating conflict in their lives with the plan on their lives. I ask you Lord, today to break all chains of bondage for myself as anyone else reading this blog. You know our needs and you know the traumas and pain we have faced. I know Lord, you don't want us to live in our "story" because You have a better story for us. I want that story Lord. My life means more to YOU than just the tragedies and pain and abuse I have faced. There is more for myself as well as every other believer you are holding in the palm of YOUR hand. Lord, guide me with my writing. Help me to find the words to continue to speak to others. Help the right doors open and Lord, close the wrong ones as well.
I thank You Lord for loving me and always holding my hand.
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Link Up: <a href="http://www.melissataylor.org">Melissa Taylor</a>Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-27501837877868151482012-03-25T13:33:00.001-05:002012-03-25T13:39:06.819-05:00While I'm Waiting -Lord, I am waiting. Waiting for you to guide me on the path I need to walk. The path to freedom from fear: TOTAL FREEDOM.. Lord, I am begging you and asking you to hear my deepest longings for freedom from this fear that has controlled me my whole life.. My life hasn't been lived totally and I know you have a HUGE plan for me that is full of blessings, peace, security, acceptance, prosperity and all good. Nothing that has happened in my life is for vain. You have a good plan that I am holding onto today as I walk this path of freedom. Today Lord, I have made a choice to NOT FEAR.. A choice.. Please guide this heart with your hand in the way I should walk and the people that I need to walk beside me through this plan of freedom. Fear has controlled me too long..
Lord, I come to you today with a sense of freedom and a sense of longing to know what your plan is for me. I know it is good and always the best. Today, I want all bondage of freedom broke off of my life.. Never to return. Let me always look to you for the peace and freedom that I have searched for my whole life. I know the enemy will try to convince me that I am not free, but Lord, help me to always remember that I am free with YOU and also to have those that love me to help me walk this path along with me. I desperately need lots of prayers and support because fear is such a stronghold in my life yet I know it is done as of today. If not by feeling it but by choice.. I love you Lord and thank You for all you have done in my life and for all you will continue to do for me.
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From "Jesus Calling"<br />This is a time in your life when you must learn to let go: of loved ones, of possessions, of control. In order to let go of something that is precious to you, you must rest in My Presence, where you are complete. Take time to bask in the Light of My Love. As you relax more and more, your grasping h<span class="text_exposed_hide">...</span><span class="text_exposed_show">and gradually opens up, releasing your prized posession into My care. You can feel more secure, even in the mist of cataclysmic changes, through awareness of My continual Presence. The One who never leaves you is the same One who never changes. As you release more and more into My care, remember that I never let go of your hand.</span></div>
Link Up with Sarah Young of Jesus Calling atAngie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-34322495620526186182012-03-22T20:22:00.000-05:002012-03-22T20:26:09.353-05:00Healing is possibleI heard a saying today that has led me on a path of thinking about the word healing. Does healing mean that the problems we are facing are never something we face again or does healing mean that we just don't dwell on the problem, issue or struggle anymore? I believe that healing comes in many forms and fashions. I love the song by Laura Story called "Blessings". It talks about how blessings come through our tears, our failings, our hurts as well as the joys of life. Do you agree? I know sometimes we think that healing or blessings means that everything goes perfectly for us in this life, but that is just not reality. Reality means we are going to face struggles, pain, hurt as well as joyous times in our lives but no matter what we face, God is always with us. He will never leave us nor forsake us. Hebrews 13:5. Always remember that God's plan may not always make sense to us, but the finished product will always be best.Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-3401040098673163512012-03-20T10:42:00.002-05:002012-03-20T10:42:21.144-05:00Jesus CallingFrom the book "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young.<br />
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I speak to you from the depths of your being. Hear Me saying soothing words of Peace, assuring you of My love. Do not listen to voices of accusation, for they are not from Me. I speak to you in love-tones, lifting you up. My Spirint convicts cleanly, without crushing words of shame. Let the Spirit take charge of your mind, combing out tangles of deception. Be transformed by the truth that I live within you.<br />
The Light of My Presence is shining upon you, in benedictions of Peace. Let My Light shine in you; don't dim it with worries or fears. Holiness is letting Me live through you. Since I dwell in you, you are fully equipped to be holy. Pause before responding to people or situations, giving My Spirit space to act through you. Hasty words and actions leave no room for Me; this is atheistic living. I want to inhabit all your moments- gracing your thoughts, words and behavior.<br />
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Romans 8: 1-2, Colossians 1:27, 1 Corinthians 6:19Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-53482105676229541122012-03-13T08:47:00.000-05:002012-03-13T08:47:34.929-05:00From Frumps to PumpsHow about a $500 gift card for a shopping spree to Target. Check out Sarah Mae at <a href="http://sarahmae.com/stretchingintoblue/">http://sarahmae.com/stretchingintoblue/</a>. Check out her new e-book called From Frumps to Pumps and sign up to receive a shopping spree to Target. Good luck everyone. The E-book is available as a free download.Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-31664191867892412722012-03-08T13:44:00.000-06:002012-03-08T13:44:19.322-06:00Bible StudyToday was bible study day at my home. We had a great time and enjoyed the fellowship as well as digging into the Word of God. What would we do without the Bible and the answers it provides? <br />
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Each time we open the Word of God, there is always something new to learn. I know that being a believer for over 35 years, that doesn't change the need I have daily for a "fresh" word from the Lord. I believe in my journey that I have come across many verses that I have read many times, yet on this particular day, somehow, someway, God allows me to see this verse in a whole new light. <br />
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Light is just as necessary as darkness. I look at my own journey and often wonder why there has been so much darkness, but then I wonder; would I be who I am today if I had not had the struggles and pain in my life that I have faced? We will never fully understand God's plan on this side of heaven, but I hope one day it will all make sense to me. I have many questions on a daily basis, but I have to continue to lean on my life verse of Jeremiah 29:11. <br />
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"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the LORD, “and will <strong>bring you back from captivity</strong>. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”<br />
Captivity has been part of my journey and at times is still part of it, but I thank God each and every day that I am not where I was before, but I also pray that He will guide me into the place, plan and purpose He has for me. Captivity is not God's plan. <br />
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God, today be with anyone that is reading this post today. I pray that You will use my words to guide them into the fullness of your joy and into your plan as well as to open Your Word for all the answers that they are searching for; whatever they need Lord, provide. I ask that You prosper their lives and that they will be all that You made them to be in this world. We know life isn't easy but Lord, I know You are always there when we call on Your name... Lord, we are calling on you today..Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-35952870319029885642012-03-03T11:22:00.000-06:002012-03-03T11:22:22.931-06:002nd Video. Bible Study on John 15 The True Vine<iframe height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/N1Z1m85V2i0?fs=1" frameborder="0" width="459" allowfullscreen=""></iframe>Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-63752411515690495842012-03-02T13:22:00.002-06:002012-03-02T13:22:50.521-06:00Bible StudyI am hosting a bible study at my home beginning March 8th at 10 a.m. We will be studying John 15:1-6 as of right now. This is a bible study that I have written myself and I would love for anyone interested to attend. After March 8th, I will post the first weeks study here on my blog.Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8942457687169971303.post-40707694218684865672012-02-23T20:46:00.001-06:002012-03-12T12:11:24.839-05:00Random Things I loveIn no order, things I love:<br />
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My husband<br />
My 3 grandkids<br />
3 dogs, silly as they are and as annoying as they are<br />
My house<br />
pink houseshoes<br />
all of my books that I love and hate to part with<br />
The Word of God that has given me a way to live<br />
friends<br />
my new car<br />
Mountain Dew<br />
Powered Sugar Donuts ( my addiction)<br />
always having food and clothes<br />
my desk<br />
pictures of important people in my life<br />
friends far and wide<br />
my journals that have held my deepest thoughts for most of my life<br />
pens/paper to keep my thoughts in some order (LOL)<br />
my crafts that keep me thinking and give me joy to make<br />
live/love/laugh phrase<br />
my mom<br />
my cousin Tanna and her family<br />
my neice Kourtney and her family<br />
my Uncle Dooley and his family<br />
a good, old fashioned hamburger and french fries<br />
a Dairy Queen butterfinger Blizzard<br />
movies that are good and clean<br />
and many other gracious gifts from the Lord......Angie Webbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05017372273722193107noreply@blogger.com0